A's

just a few more to go...

22 Oct 2009

Don't force me...because the answer I give, either you won't believe me or it will end up in an awkward silence.

2nd June 2009

went expo ytd for the FIRST TIME in my 17 and a half yrs of living. lol. was there to actually help help my dear junior CSLs "ABIT" only...but in the end helped out for like...around 3+pm to 8+pm....so around 5 hours? LOL...but only sold 20 bags. i am such a slacker xD after that stuffed myself full wif whooper then went home :D

hmm...anws how many lil couples we going to have in CSL i wonder.

thinking of what to do abt je...... now...:(

life is...complicated

I wish u can tell me what's bothering u. It cant be out of nth that u start emo-ing. there mus be a trigger for it. u dun usually wake up and decide that "hey today sucks" suddenly right...but why u wun tell me anything...

I am CoNfUsEd

what's so funny about me sitting with u guys? what's the reason why suddenly everyone jus dun wanna sit beside me in class? cuz of my BO? but i dun always smell...or cuz i always go toilet? but i suppose that wun hurt any1. or maybe cuz u think i am jus a joke that supplies sweets? if so then i can understand. or is it plainly me reading too much into stuff?...

I am FrUsTrAtEd

a bit more to A's. Just this bit more. 2yrs and more of work to study. finally panicking. but is it too late? can i make it to a local uni? what about NS...why cant i jus be fitter...hundreds and thousands or whats cans and whys...

I am NeRvOuS

2 of my siblings were aborted. if reincarnation exists...i am either one of them...or the only one that insisted on being born. The feeling of having the burden of living for 2 other lives lost for which allowed my lucky descent into the world. I am near the breaking point...but i will live on...thinking its for them i guess.

I am DrAiNeD

=.=

19 May 2009

Is it so hard to jus have someone like u? Honestly, I am jealous of all the others I see.

Maybe I'm still young...maybe u who are reading this is...but don't u wish there wud be someone out there jus for u?

Stop leaving me hanging by a thread...I tot my tears will never flow for such reasons again. But i realise.....maybe I should jus stop wishing for it.




I am just a coward, fearing rejection.

10th post...I am afraid...

I am glad to know you...but sometimes you seem so far from me. I never thought I would feel like this again. I don't wanna lose you...probably the only few who would come to my blog any more...a dark place where I throw all my childish rants and emotional thinking into.



I will break if I lose you...and thats when all hell truly break loose, but I dun want it to happen, ever...

er...dots?

I don't really know what to post about...and since i can count who visits this blog with just one hand anyways...well u can try proving me wrong.

oh. Got my PW results back. B...i tot i would be much happier about it...but i guess heaven's pretty fair. With a good grade (can't say its bad...neither is it the best), as usual....something not so nice happened...OH WELLS...it has always been so since...i dunno...i was born? every time something nice happens...something bad does...and usually...the bad thing would what u call offsets whatever great feelings i had. well watever...f it all..






为什么。。。给予别人关怀。。。尤其是那对自己来说是最特别最重要的。。。却就等于给予自己悲伤和痛苦？

或许。。。我真应该忘了爱。。。